Dear My Sweet Evelyn,
You are one year old already! How could that be? I remember the day you were born so vividly. I remember feeling completely overwhelmed that this sweet baby was mine and that our lives were forever changed. I remember what it felt like the first moment you were on my chest, how fragile and small you felt in my arms. I remember how you cried and cried and I didn’t know what to do, for the first of many, many times. I remember it all so well.
When I look at you now, I still can’t believe you are mine. It is amazing to watch you learn and grow every day. You are the happiest girl I know and are never stingy with your smiles. You will even pretend to laugh, though you have no idea what’s so funny. You dance whenever and wherever you hear music. You have a tremendous sense of adventure and are always so curious. You go with the flow, even when we drag you through the mountains on a hike in the rain, you do it with a smile and a nap on Daddy. You, my baby girl, bring joy to my life every day.
There are days that are harder than others. When you won’t sleep or you throw everything I try to give you to eat on the floor. There are many days that you constantly cry for me and want me to carry you everywhere. Most of these days I get frustrated, because I give you my all, and some days, that is just not enough. I try to remember you won’t always need me or want me like this and as fast as this year went, I’m sure the others will fly by as well. For some reason that makes me sad, because you won’t always be my baby, but I am excited to watch you grow into the little person you will become.
One year ago today, you were four days old. Four days. We didn’t know what we were doing, but we made it. You made us a family and you made me a mom. Life is better because of you. Life is harder because of you. Life is a whole lot more fun because of you. I never realized how much I could love you, but there are some times my heart literally feels like it is going to burst because I just love you so much. I can’t wait to spend this next year loving on you and making more memories as a family!